Auxiliary breathing
January 08, 2002 @ 12:02 p.m.
Matt's supposed to come over tonight. We had a big misunderstanding (imagine that) and although he said everything's cool, I don't think it is. Why is it that when girls tease, guys find it a turnoff, but they may tease as much as they'd like? That's what initiated the whole "big misunderstanding." Basically, shit took a nosedive, and that was not cool in the least. But anyway, you get my point. Matt's a jerkoff but I still care for him desperately. God, I'm tired of being desperate.
Dreamt of Kyle last night...wonderful images. He played for me, held me. I tied him up, tasted him all over. Anyone find that wrong? I can't help thinking it's for the better we're not involved too much. I haven't felt this way since Reagan, and I never thought I would again. But with Reagan, I fell in love when he didn't even become involved. I won't do that again. I refuse to do that again, because I ruined that.
I will not ruin what Kyle and I have. Even as friends, that's more than I could have ever asked for.
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