not so well, y'know?
April 24, 2003 @ 4:44 p.m.
i came to this diary a little girl. naive, if you want. crushing over a boy that i didn't really want. although i would have taken him if he had let me. i realized it wasn't him that i was looking for. i moved on. i grew more jaded. but i grew.
now i am trying to change my lifestyle again, except this time for the healthy. and i find myself feeling like that little girl. i feel helpless to lose weight, because i have no self control.
i'm also realizing fully that this has nothing to do with how much i weigh. the dislike i carry for myself braids itself into how i self-harm. eating is just another way i can do it to myself.
you see? the naive little girl all over again. i know my situation. my locus of control radar is further left field than it should be; i can't fix anything.
and we all know how i do with changing my mind.
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