Just flicker
February 15, 2002 @ 10:54 a.m.
There's just as much goth in me
as there is Catholic schoolgirl;
I wear the skirt and the chains
at the same time.
I'm a bit of a hedonist, a bit of an atheist,
a bit of a girl
and a bit of you.
Do you mind?
I want you to knock on that door, just once, without me expecting you. I want that phone to ring and have it be your voice on the other end, listening, laughing, promising. I want you to care, and I know you won't, and I purposely do this to myself, I purposely force this discomfort upon myself because it's the only way I've known.
I have always had lofty goals, even when it comes to men. I reached for the impossible because I loved the chase, and I love the chase because I know it's impossible.
That's the weird thing about me, though: I flicker but never die, never fade. Just flicker.
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