Complete
February 20, 2002 @ 1:57 p.m.
I think things are fixed now.
At least, between the three of us.
I don't even want to know about between Matt and I.
The best thing about all of this -- if indeed there is a best thing -- was that it gave me release to talk to Becky. I will admit I don't talk to her. I don't give her a clue as to what's going on in my head.
That world's a scary place...why anyone would want to go there voluntarily is beyond me.
It's a day here, cold and raining, where you just want to curl up with someone in bed and feel all right.
That thought chokes me up.
I want someone to lay in bed with. I want to curl up with someone and feel all right.
And why is it that I believe only this will truly make me complete? Shouldn't I be able to find happiness in less amorous places? Shouldn't that be a part of my femininity that I can be proud of?
I'm not, because it's void in me. I need that completeness, that other half.
I need that body in bed beside me, stroking my hair, whispering.
I need you.
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