Truth told
March 01, 2002 @ 1:47 p.m.
This is me and Janice's talk. I wanted to share a bit with you, to show you how beautiful she is. You need some background: the poem that she is talking about is this one.
I'm falling for the man
that you could be
I'm falling for the choices
that you should make
I'm falling for the risks
that you would take
I'm falling for the laugh
you sometimes fake
I'm falling for your potential,
for fuck's sake.
~~> Also, follow the screennames the way our names start. (Example: Keekerbaby for Kelly)
JMB FC: OH KELLY
JMB FC: "for you"
Keekerbaby: what?
JMB FC: is brilliant
Keekerbaby: whoa
JMB FC: it takes me back to a very specific time
Keekerbaby: I was like, what did I do?
JMB FC: it's just out there
JMB FC: dead
JMB FC: flat
JMB FC: honest to God
JMB FC: realization
Keekerbaby: that's for Matt
Keekerbaby: too
JMB FC: I figured
Keekerbaby: I just....ack
Keekerbaby: ya know?
JMB FC: yeah, I know
JMB FC: I know
Keekerbaby: there's so much that he could be
Keekerbaby: if only....just if only
JMB FC: then.. you're not falling for him at all
JMB FC: you are in love with the idea of being in love
JMB FC: and he looks like he has the potential to be what you could see yourself falling for
JMB FC: you've got to be careful not to work too hard at love
Keekerbaby: I haven't had love to work at
JMB FC: it's relationship upkeep that takes the energy, not the interest. but you have to get there. and you have to make sure you've hooked the right fish before youdo
Keekerbaby: i've had nothing, I've had nothing
Keekerbaby: I'm a novice at this, a clueless hungry crying girl who just wants to be okay in someone else's eyes
JMB FC: It takes a while
JMB FC: I won't even close to lie to you
JMB FC: it's usually rough
Keekerbaby: I don't have anything, and I'm just looking for a sliver or hope, something that tells me that I'm worth loving
Keekerbaby: I haven't found that yet
JMB FC: but the steeper the road is, the more comforting and sweet that rest will be at the top, you know?
Keekerbaby: and I'm losing that hope
Keekerbaby: that peak is so far away
JMB FC: what religious beliefs do you hold?
Keekerbaby: I was Catholic, until I went to Catholic school
Keekerbaby: now I'm basically foreign to the term
JMB FC: lol
Keekerbaby: and anything to do with God I've forgotten
Keekerbaby: I don't pray
Keekerbaby: I don't find solace in Christ
Keekerbaby: I don't find solace in anything deistical (I think I just made up a word)
JMB FC: lol
Keekerbaby: I have nothing to do with God and he has nothing to do with me
Keekerbaby: we have an agreement, I think
JMB FC: I used to feel that way
JMB FC: but
Keekerbaby: I'm afraid I always will
JMB FC: He did create Matt
JMB FC: and you should thank him everyday
Keekerbaby: It's hard to see the truth with the veil so thick in front of my eyes
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