alone tonight, again
November 02, 2003 @ 12:51 a.m.
Maybe it's just the four hours of sleep talking. Maybe it's the coldness invading my feet, or the rain tapping on my windows. Maybe it's tonight in general, where I accomplished much of nothing. Maybe it's because I'm sick. Maybe it's because I'm craving sexual attention. Maybe it's because I feel unattractive today. Maybe it's because I feel like I don't matter. Maybe it's because of my hormones. Maybe it's the tears, emulating the rain tapping on my windows. Maybe it's stress. I don't know what it is.
I know this: I do not want to be alone tonight.
But I will be.
And I know that there will never be anything to fill this emptiness, not ever, ever again.
At least not tonight.
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