I am a mess.


As soon as the welts disappear
April 22, 2002 @ 11:13 a.m.

I don't know where you've been lately

and I don't care to know

There's something in me that loves you

but it's quickly bleeding out

quickly getting out

and I don't want you anymore

so stay the fuck away from me

and I can't have you anymore

so don't ever leave me

And I can't stand you anymore

so don't ever go away

The least you could do is remember

(can't even remember)

The immaculate, the changing, the ever void. And I'm okay, I promise, he never showed up. And it's not like I waited (just like you promised), but I'm okay.

A frame of mind is derived of certain mental processes and these you must push along in agony until you find what you need.

In short, I'm afraid. I know I can't get through this. But I try because I yearn to fail. Don't worry, I'll be fine. Everything will be just fine.

As soon as the welts disappear.



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