Anymore
January 12, 2002 @ 11:55 a.m.
So run away smiling
to that family who says they love you
They lie, just like you did
(just like you do)
And how come nobody told me it was this bad?
Prolly 'cause I'd never return
I'd light my flame somewhere else
Claim my birth there, and move on softly
Then I wouldn't come back
and let you breathe just a little
I'd never come back
and let you confess your sins
while I watched the sinner
And I never claimed I'd take care of you
it just kinda happened
If I could go back, perhaps I'd change it
but perhaps not...
perhaps it wouldn't matter by then anyway
but still I hesitate
still I yearn to call your bluff
but it's too late
You've turned your head, the game is over
and I sigh
and vomit myself into oblivion
My chest racked with fever, still I
insist on assisting
and pretending it's all all right
And I never meant to
It was just something I was dragged into
and I am tired
and sick of fighting for your lies
You need to quit shaking me
even upside down, my pockets are empty
and I want you to quit shaking me
You can't rip the insanity from me
and these are my clutches
and this is my family
So leave me alone, mister
and mom and dad and brother and all
Who insist on stifling
and pilfering
and crying
I can't breathe for you all anymore
and I'm so angry
That's why I'm shrieking to you
from the floor
where my place is, well
it's not my place anymore
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