Go about
May 31, 2002 @ 2:42 p.m.
Kelly: so what's up with this Jamie girl that I heard about?
Matt: jamie?
Kelly: yeah
Kelly: the chick who you told Jessica about, you were gonna take her to the Incubus concert
Matt: yah - we had a good time
Kelly: you want to start something with her?
Matt: if it works
Kelly: what do you mean, if it works?
Matt: me and her
Kelly: you don't think it will?
Matt: I don't know, I don't like to expect too much, becuase usualy it dosen't work out
Kelly: don't you suppose you could be positive about it?
Kelly: you said that you need to learn to get close to people, right? So why don't you try with her?
Matt: ... because I don[t' wanna fuck stuff up
Kelly: you'll fuck stuff up if you don't get close to her
Matt: oh well
Kelly: you want to be like that?
Matt: damned if i do...
Kelly: I don't know if I would say that
Kelly: you're the one who's so goal-oriented
Kelly: can't you just say "Hey, I think I'll start communicating with people more?"
Matt: because
Kelly: what are you afraid of?
Matt: me
Kelly: what's to fear?
Matt: oh well
Kelly: I don't think there's anything to fear with you
Kelly: I just don't understand why you can't open up to people....are you afraid of revealing too much and then you're open and exposed?
Matt: yep
Kelly: you're going to have to eventually....or it will be very difficult to love someone and have someone love you
Matt: sigh
Kelly: oh, what?
Matt: nothing
Kelly: psssh, whatever, you just don't like having decent conversations with me :-P
Matt: sigh
Kelly: I see how you are
Matt: I guess
Kelly: hm.
Kelly: you don't like talking about yourself when we have to get halfway serious, do you? You dodge questions like crazy
Matt: I try
Kelly: grrrr
It's his fault that he's damned. He's the one who damns his own cause. I just want to help him with it......because even if he's not happy with me, I want him to be happy. I don't care much whether or not it's with me anymore.
....I don't know, there's got to be a better way to go about all of this.
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