just forget
December 10, 2003 @ 2:13 p.m.
I slept thirteen and a half hours today and I am still a mess of aching thighs and unclear thoughts. I'm not sure what I want out of anything anymore. I dislike college, I don't care for my job, and I don't know what I'm living for. To be sure, there's not enough reason to kill myself, but I'm not sure there's really an active reason to keep living, either. I haven't a person to live for. I haven't a reason to get up in the morning, and so I don't much anymore. Parts of me are gangrenous but the whole is still breathing, so I suppose it's still all right, right?
I need to drink. Drink enough that I forget what it's like to think heavily, and not worry about it. Not worry about anything anymore. Just forget.
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