Funny joke, Jesus. I get it. Really. Now stop.
August 12, 2002 @ 5:17 p.m.
"thank you
i'm not sure what else to say, i mean, it's ridiculous.
I owe you an apology as well. I get obnoxious when i get frustrated and
because you were frustrated, that frustrated me and then i start to not
care about anything, so it's easy to push you away.
um, i don't even really know how long it has been since i've talked to
you. I'm glad you're playing guitar. That's good. I am in a band again.
I joined a new band. We were all in a band together a few
years ago, but they
kicked me out and then they asked me to join them again, so it's been a
lot of fun this past week, learning their songs and everything. We're
recording a studio album the end of the month. I will let you know when
it is finished. I'm not on the site
just yet, but i will be very shortly. Keep checking if you want.
www.pawnshopcaddies.com
Chrissy and i couldn't be happier. Susanne's a psycho. I got into the
drawing class i wanted. I have a mohawk again, it's just natural at the
moment though.
that's all the news i guess, but yeah.
take care.
thanks for having the balls"
...This is from Kyle, after I emailed him and apologized for all the bullshit that happened four months ago.
I think we might be okay. Not perfect. Not even close. But maybe okay.
In other news, I'm newfound nineteen and it's not any different. I still am tired all of the time. Still get sharp pinging headaches after screaming or singing or crying too loud. Still lonely; still pretending it's okay to be. Still feeling insecure but overall pretty grounded, considering.
I don't miss my brother, as awful as that sounds. It's strange, but the feeling is just honestly not there. By and by little pangs of sadness appear, but nothing lasting. I feel guilty for it but clueless as to what I can do. I can't force myself to feel...I guess I'm still in denial about everything. I'll let my mother cry over him every night, and stick to being the strong one.
The car I was hoping to get...the man's asking much more than I thought he would. $3000. Blue book says even with a private party sale it's only worth $2430.
Funny joke you're playing, Jesus.
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