Potency
January 22, 2003 @ 9:17 p.m.
"NEWS NEWS I've GOT THE NEWS
Asked Mitch in algebra, JD is leaving... but the band isn't. Something about not playing as "As Advertised" any more or something, I dunno, class was about to start, couldn't talk much."
So yes. This is the news over at the As Advertised boards. Just another one of those things I wish I could control but I can't.
I changed half the strings on my guitar last night after breaking two and having this very nice man at West Music named Mark show me properly how to string. I suppose I should be proud of myself -- my mother sure was -- but it's nothing. Just another thing I can do by myself instead of paying $20 to have it done.
...(What I would do for you, if you only knew)...
So I'm numb in several ways, and thinking about deleting this whole mess of a diary. I don't know if it was worth it. Hours days a year later, I don't know if this was worth my time.
"I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker,
And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and snicker,
And in short, I was afraid."
It seems everyone's being their own little island these days. I will admit, I have been pushing away, but just because I'm tired. Just because I can't stand this landscape right now. And I don't want to bring you here with me. Because it's not your place, and I can't hurt you any more. I just don't want to.
These little buckets of friends that I have. A dropfull of me fills them, I'm very potent.
Nothing I say makes any sense.
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