I am a mess.


Suicide that I didn't commit
April 22, 2002 @ 8:15 p.m.

M: hey - what's new?

M: sorry about the other night

Kelly: you should have called

M: it was kind of an emergency, I didn't realy have time

K: what happened last night?

M: your email said to forget about comming last night

M: so I didn't go

M: Don't bother with it, I'll just see you whenever.

M: that's what it said, I didn't meen to piss ya off

K: I was pissed at you

M: I'm sorry, next time I have a friend who wants to kill himself I'll tell him I can't come talk to him because I want to hang out w/ you

K: you know what, how was I supposed to know what the hell was going on? I'm sorry for having feelings

K: I hope your friend's all right, I honestly do, but I didn't know what was going on, what would have you thought?

M: I would have called you then next day and asked what's up or I would have tried calling my cellphone

K: I thought you blew me off

How was I supposed to know? And now he makes me feel badly, because I didn't. How does he do it? How does he make me feel so goddamn guilty when I don't even know this fucking person? Oh this is ridiculous, this is absolutely fucking ridiculous!

Argh.



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