I tell you what you get -- you get away from me
June 12, 2004 @ 2:39 a.m.
I can't leave this open. The wrong person has found it before and the wrong person will find it again, if I let it happen. The terror of it grips me, even now, even with the unlikelihood of it.
Before, it was different. I could avoid him, and I wanted to avoid him. I don't want to avoid this one. I'm really rather fond of this one. Oh, I wish things were different. I wish I could speak. I wish I could take back this diary, make it what it used to be. I already feel the quiet breaking, the bonds breaking. I already can breathe again.
I don't want to lose that.
Feeling: a little panicky, but otherwise okay.
Listening to: Modest Mouse's "Ocean Tastes Salty" is in my head
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